In winter 2021 I decided to spend time at a more sunny and lighter place, then grey and cold Germany – not to mention the repeated lockdowns.
Thanks to my colleague Stephen I found a place on the coast of Spain, close to Barcelona, where my soul immediately connected. I spent my first two months there, resting, lingering, taking care of myself with the only intention to create space for what wanted to emerge through me. It was tough at the beginning, but slowly I arrived. I realized how fully packed my life was of too much “I have to”, “I must”, “I should” trying to prove my worth of belonging. This had to stop.
Inspired by the book “15 commitments of conscious leadership” I got curious about the 3 levels of consciousness:
TO ME – LIFE HAPPENS TO ME
Posture: Victim
Experience: Blaming and complaining
Beliefs: There is a problem, someone is at fault, someone should fix this
Key question: Why me? Whose fault is it?
Benefits: Experience separateness, defined identity, entertaining drama, supports empathy, adrenaline high
BY ME – I MAKE LIFE HAPPEN
Posture: Creator
Experience: Appreciation
Beliefs: problems are here for me to learn from, I create the problem, so I can solve it
Key question: What can I learn? what do I want to create?
Benefits: Personal empowerment, define your wants and desires
THROUGH ME – I COOPERATE WITH LIFE HAPPENING
Posture: Co-Creator
Experience: Allowing, flow, wonder and awe
Beliefs: I am the source of all meaning, I experience things as perfect, whole and complete. Life handles all apparent “problems”
Key question: what wants to happen through me?
Benefits: non-attachment, unlimited possibility, plenty of everything
Although state 2 has served me a lot in my life – I was tired. And I wondered: how can I work and live more from state 3 “through me”?
This “me time” project is a result of me learning to surrender, taking care of my self and living my life with more ease.
This is an invitation for you to explore a different state of being, stepping out of too much doing.
